“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

                   Helllllo people it's finally fridayyyyyy yayy ;b had my nap in the afternoon & I'm still tired naoz. D: I should probably sleep early tonight ;b

                  Ok so common test started yesterday with Chinese & History. O god history was shitty no D:< I can't believe I forgot about the aims of the League of Nations nooo *slaps myself*

                 Enough of slappinggggg so ok today had Amath & English. As usual English was shit & I completed the paper way too early HAHA. Then Amath, woah. Damn hardcore, 5 questions 45 minutes, I was rushing like hell that I didn't even look around, almost couldn't complete the paper man. D: not pinning high hopes so I'll hope for a pass.

                 Next Monday having chem & emath ughhhh so afraid I'll not do well. Must go for tuition tomorrow then ask my teacher about everything I don't know hahahaha. Emath also. D: indices like stupid sia.

                  Okkkk anyway I am so glad to have new people in my life nao. Yay. :') happy Valencia iz happy. Hahaha ok I don't know what to talk about anymoree, shall blog again soon! Goodnight qtpies ;*

                      So yep, heyyy everyone, I'm back! I know I haven't been blogging for two months++ :x but please try to understand that school reopened & I haven't had the time to blog as I've school on weekdays & tuition on weekends. D:
       
                  Yes sec 3's life & sec 2's life is SO DAMN different. When I was in sec two, all I did after school was to go home & sleeeep, good life eh. Until sec three started, school ends so late everyday & cca starts late & ofcuz ends late too. So busy with all the homework & CCA trainings. :/

                   common test is next week so I'm gonna study hard for it, I swear. Especially physics & history ugh.

                 Ok enough of studies, I went to meet my babes after school yesterdayyy ♡♡♡ watched movie & ofcuz we took a lot of pictures hehe. haven't been meeting them for like SO MAMY MONTHS. Missed them so much. :/ yesterday was well spent I would say.

                 Besides that, I think I'm offically getting over him alreadyy, yayyyy ^~^ now I sincerely wish he'll last long with his new girlfriend. :)

                 Other than all these, the b division basketball matches, we lost all three. But we were happy that we improved much from the last match. Let's work harder next year! :D #teamNorthbrooks ♡♡♡ loving all the seniors & players in my team.

                  Okkkk I think that's enough for today, need to get up & go for tuition soon so I'll try to blog again soon I promise. ;* buhbyee. :D

                                         [17th day without you]
                                                                   
                                                       " Every heart has a pain. Only the way of expressing it is different. Fools hide it in eyes, while the brilliant hide it in their smile."
                                   

                            Hey there, I'm kinda feeling better now, and he has someone new so I guess it's just time for me to move on. :') all the best to you & her yeah. (: last long. I'm glad you found someone better & I hope you're happy.

                            So yep, been going out these few days. Went bowling with Leo & Daphne, can't deny it's fun but tiring!!! It's was fun la. Hahaha & we laughed a lot. Then Thursday went scape & cine with XinPei & Daphne, went to catch Ah Boys To Men, it was my fifth time thought haha. I got a new screen protector & tribal phone skin, damn preeedddyyyy. :) so we were just camwhore-ing all the time before & after the movie.

                              After XinPei went home, Daphne & I went to get Best Fries Forever & we went to her granny's to have dinner. That dog still scares me though. Hahahaha. Yesterday went to look for mummy then eat subway then went shopping around Tampiness. ;x

                              Bytheway tuition started for Pure chem, Emath & Amath. Pure chem has a lot of chim words ok!! Then other then that kinda understandable. I don't care if there's such a word but yeah. Ok then Emath is okay since it's just a continuation to what we did in sec 2, Amath is da shit, Amath is hell man I swear, I don't understand a single bit of it & I wonder how the rest can do the questions. :((

                               & I'm just lazy to tweet about anything else so yes I think that's all since I can blog tomorrow. :)) going cycling with Daphne, Leo & Kelvin tomorrow hopefully, if it's rains then bowling again hehe. Will try to blog tomorrow if I'm not tired or lazy. Goodnight. :))

                                            [9th day without you]
 
                                                            " Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew."

                      So yes, everything changed since 17 November 2012. He left me. & I know he's not coming back anymore. But yeah, it's been six months already & he just said his feelings for me fade. I am trying so hard to get used to life without him but I really miss him. I really miss how he would text me "morning bi .:)" every morning & how he would give me a goodnight text every night. I miss how he would always disturb me, how he plays with my hair, how he would hug me, how he would try to feed me food but I refuse to open my mouth, how he would just lie down on my lap & place my hand on his chest, & how he kept telling me how much he loves me. I miss everything about him. It's so hard to live a life without him. I'm all different now. It's like there's this part of me that has been taken away.
                              Everyone's telling me to get over him, move on, forget about him. How can I forget him when he gave me so much to remember? I know I lost him already, I really know. People telling me it's his lost, not mine, someone else said I can find someone better than him, i said "he's the best already, I don't want anybody else" & he said "if he's the best, he wouldn't leave you just like that." It's true, if he was the best, he wouldn't have left me just like that. So what if he hurts me so deeply? I was the one who allowed him to hurt me. After all these & I still love him, I really can't explain why.

                              Now that I lost him, I have more friends, but can all those friends make up all the lost? Even the bestest friend can't replace him. I'm just sorry to say. If he were to come back & never leave again, nothing else matters cuz I'm only truly happy with him. I look happy now, but it's really not how I feel om the inside, whenever I think of him I just feel all the pain & all the memories just comes back. I wish I didn't even lose him. I wish I did all those things he expected me to do. I wish I treated him better so that he wouldn't leave. Now my heart is broken.

                            I can only find things to distract myself. Cuz I don't want to live with all these pain anymore. But every morning I really hope to receive his text & every morning I end up being disappointed. I ask myself, is he worth all the pain, is he worth all the effort I'm putting in. & my heart just tells me "if he's willing to come back, I don't mind if it's pain, if only he's willing to come back." I really wish he'll just text me & tell me he misses me, I know it's not possible that's why I won't even text him & tell him I miss him. Cuz deep down in my heart I know he's gone forever. I just can't imagine my future without him when the past six months he's all over the future I'm imagining. I'm sorry for not being strong enough. I just want him back. Sigh.. I think that's all for today. I'll blog again next time. Enjoy your Monday.
                         
                
                                                    

                                                                 “Choose your love. Love your choice.”

                                      Haven't been blogging for quite a while. Last week went had friendly match against NJC, kena thrashed. But it's ok, we had fun & experienced how their players play. After that went to sentosa, fun day. Played some games, water games. Went into the sea, had fun. Had a lot of bonding. Then went to eat dinner with ShiYun, JiaHui, Nayli, Diana, Evelyn, Shelby & Ms Yeo.  

                                        The next day went to USS with JiaHui, Xylon, JiaZe & Harby. Fun day also. Although the mummy ride was scary like hell. Transformers ride quite scary also. Then others were fun. After that ate dinner then went home. Other then that, kinda rot at home till today.

                                        So things are getting out of hand. Baby giving Me the cold shoulder. Telling me he has no mood then er hais.. don't wanna talk about it. I just know he treat me so differently and everything else. To be honest, I feel that he doesn't love me anymore. I'm just a pain to him.. tried so hard to give in already & it still wasn't enough to make you happy. Apparently you don't even appreciate me right. Hais.

                                 Enough of all these, cried enough already. Gd'night.
                          

                                                                    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”

                                Gooooodmorning qtpies! ^^ Woke up at 9+ wanted to sleep again but can't sleep cuz the minute I wake up I wanted to know my class next year. Haha.

                                So I'm in 3I next year! & thank god, they give me history, Amath, Pure Chemistry & Pure Physics! :) but Xylon, Daphne & Diviya all not in 3I, hais. :( KiasuGang not together. :(

                                           Anyways, it's Monday sooo I want to like see if my tote bag is here! Hehe, ^^ & there's training tomorrow, wahhhhh, damn lazy to go. ;< goddddd, but at least it's an excuse for me to not go for the library duty hehe!

                                           Okay then Wednesday got day camp, Thursday meeting Sherralyn! ^~^ she's gonna bring me to pierce my tragus, yayyy! So long never see her already, x_x Thursday should arrive faster!

                                           Bytheway, haven't been seeing baby for 2 weeks. Hais. :( & we kinda quarreled yesterday, it was really bad. But we so called "patched back" after like maybe 1 hour. I feel really bad okay, need to change, really.

                                           I hope he reads this. Soo.. I'm sorry for being so unreasonable, like really sorry,  I promise I will change. I know you're trying very very hard to make me happy when I'm angry & it's very difficult to tolerate my attitude these days. Sorry for hurting you by showing you attitude, I know you're not angry anymore but I still feel really bad. Thankyou for being by my side for so long, & not giving up on me. You, me, to infinity & beyond? I love you. ;*